Sunday, November 20, 2011

The Wonders in My Life




Remember the pure joy and celebration that comes with the delivery of your baby? The astonishment of newborn hands and tiny toes. The contented sighs signaling a full tummy. Tears of amazement and unbridled happiness streaming down your cheeks at this precious, new creation.


Softest skin; warm, sweet breath; snuggling close in the wee hours of the morning when everyone else is still  asleep.


Baby sighs; powder-fresh smells; swaddled in love; wrapped up in kisses.


Long eyelashes; perfect, rosy red lips; tiny pug noses; porcelain skin.

The wonders in my life are to be celebrated; celebrated like on the day of their births and the days immediately following.

Sometimes I forget this, though. While I'm battling in the trenches of the latest war of the siblings; the "He hit me!", and the "She started it!".

Sometimes I forget to celebrate the little things; things like my 5 year old learning to zip his own coat; things like remembering to clear the dirty plates and glasses without a reminder; things like seeing my one year old putting her books back in the bookshelf.

I'm trying to remember to praise them for the simple things; cheer them on when they do a little good; clap my hands when they learn something new.

I'm trying to catch them doing the right things, instead of the wrong...

So that a few years down the road I don't ask myself, Where did I go wrong?


In answer to the Monday Listicle...

I'd love to have more kids...

If I would have a started at a younger age...

But you can't get much more right than two boys and two girls.

       Mama's Losin' It   List your life’s Seven Wonders.   
I really can count...I know there aren't seven wonders listed...but I'm feeling a bit like a rebel. 

Monday, November 14, 2011

A Beautiful, Sweaty Mess

When I run, that's often how I feel, even though on the outside I'm a dripping, red-faced, no-make-up-wearing, sweaty, hot mess.

When I run...

I am confident. I will chat with another runner, and I will be the first to strike up a conversation; something that is normally hard for me to do.

When I run...

I feel beautiful. A term that is not usually used to describe me.

When I run...

I am strong. My leg muscles carry my body for miles and miles at a time.

When I run...

My often cluttered mind becomes suddenly clear; with a clarity only a good runner's high can achieve.

When I run...

The guilt of past days not-so-great mom moments I sometimes have are gently released with each breath in and out.

When I run...

I feel like anything is possible.

When I run...

I smile.

And when I walk in the door to meet the chaos and clutter and four little kids begging for my attention...

I'm still smiling...

Because the beautiful, sweaty mess that is me is truly blessed.



 

Sunday, November 13, 2011

When You Need a Vacation

When the laundry is piled up higher than my children are tall...


It's time for a vacation.

When the sound of my voice nagging about who-knows-what irritates even me...



It's time for a vacation.

When the kids are fighting and screaming and yelling and tattling...


It's time for a vacation.

When I've cleaned up spilled Kool-Aid for the 9th time in one day...


It's time for a vacation.

When my thoughts are a swirling mess in my already cluttered head...


When the house is in a state of chaos...


When I just want to play outside...


And take pictures of beautiful kids, calming water, unique bridges, and gorgeous scenery...


It's time for a vacation.

Although these aren't REAL vacations, they are much needed breaks in the everyday chores and messes and chaos and clutter in our life.

When I come back from our outdoor breaks...

I'm ready to tackle the mountain of laundry...

Clean up the sticky floor...

Break up the fights...

And plan for our next "vacation".



It's Monday...you know the drill, right? 

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Fall Photo Fun

The wind is howling here. Another reminder that winter is right around the corner...and I hate winter.

I'm soaking up as much of the autumn sun as I can; keeping it hidden away for the endless, cloudy, dreary days of winter.

Before we know it, these leaf piles will be snow piles.

And, instead of throwing leaves in the air, there will be snowballs flying.

These gorgeous red trees will soon be leafless, brown, and covered with snow.


The reds are my favorite.


As is this weeping willow.





These kids, on the other hand, are so excited for the first snow; the first time we go sledding; the first snowman we build; their first snow day...I love snow days...possibly the only good thing about winter.


Mama's Losin' It

5.) Fall in your neighborhood! Share some Fall pictures that capture the season in your neck of the woods.

Friday, November 4, 2011

8 pm

It is 8 pm on any given night.

The kids have just been tucked in tight; little arms wrapped around my neck in strong bear hugs, one more kiss, "I love you's", and I sneak out the door.

My willpower is strong, but my cravings are stronger.

My mouth is watering; I try to ignore it.

I can hear it, whispering my name, so quietly at first; louder with each passing minute.

I am weak.

I cave.





It melts in my mouth; the chocolatey goodness that satisfies my sweet tooth like nothing else can.

I am weak.




This week I want you to take me to your version of 8:00 -AM or PM, fiction or creative nonfiction- in 200 words or less.
I promise to say, “I knew it!” when I read your post.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Imperfections



My flaws are neverending; the witching hour of each day highlighting the worst.

The guilt of those witching hours run through my mind, weighing heavily on my heart and stinging my eyes with unshed tears.

The words I shouldn't have said.

The tone I shouldn't have taken.

I shake my head, trying to let loose the unwanted memory.

I know better; I should do better.

They are just children after all.  My children who have endless patience with me. Why can't I give them the same?

I am lucky to be called their mama.



Mama's Losin' It

Write a post in just eight lines. (inspired by Mommy Nani Boo Boo)

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Halloween Madness

Halloween is becoming one of my favorite holidays...not just because of all of the candy I inhale...but because my kids get SO excited.

They get excited to dress up.


They get excited to carve their pumpkins...


And light them up Halloween night.


The days leading up to Halloween are filled with pumpkin patches...


And Scarecrow Festivals...




Until it's FINALLY time for the tricks or treats.



I had to put a candy picture in there...


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